it's april 3rd and until a few moments ago, i hadn't spent any money on food this month. i had just been eating stuff i already had and at work of course. today i decided to go to the coffee shop and have a breakfast bagel and tea. the tally with tip was $8.35. i think he overcharged me for the tea because the bagel was only 3 bucks, but i didn't say anything. i mean, i just took a bath in their restroom, so whatever. i have faith that i will be able to do this thing. it's not so hard to eat free food when it's available and be frugal the rest of the time. i'm most worried about days that i don't work, then the real temptation rolls in with fine dining options at every turn. but, hey--it's not forever, i won't eat this way for the rest of my life, it's just to help me get out of a little mess i created.
i put in my resume at the new restaurant, after much hassle at kinkos due to my unorthodox word processing program 'abiword' which is incompatible with everything, and now i wait to see if they call. dooddoddooo.... oh, and i kinda made an ass of myself there when i dropped it off. i was so eager and excited that i think i sounded kind of creepy. i told them i had wanted to work there for a long time and that i was so happy when i saw their posting on craigslist. their faces showed reservation, though they were completely polite. i wonder if my resume ended up in the trash. oh well, it's out of my hands now and if it ain't meant to be, then it won't.
desert heat/small doge/blind faith
14 hours ago