i think something is wrong with me, i'm tired all the time and yesterday i woke up depressed and couldn't shake it. E thinks maybe i'm not eating right, but i don't think that's it. i feel like heavy weights hang from my legs and my eyes just want to close whenever they can. it's hard to get anything done in this state! the only thing i can get the energy up to do is work, and that's because i have to. if i don't HAVE to do something, i'd rather not. i feel lazy and i hate that feeling. it disgusts me. if sarah was here, she'd help me figure it out, put me on some herbs and i'd be good, but i don't have that support now. i'm wallowing in my own stagnation.
maybe it's pms. i hope so.
desert heat/small doge/blind faith
14 hours ago